Simpler or More Complicated?

Some pretty traumatic events have happened in my life over the last couple of weeks that will have a huge impact on my future. My family has been reduced from 5 members to 4. My husband has decided that he'd rather be with my sister in-law (my brothers wife) and they have run off to Florida together.

Of course, I was devastated and really upset by this discovery (we've been married for 20 years and together for 25) but I'm beginning to realize that the man I loved never existed. It's crazy that you can be married to a person for so long and not even know who they really are. I've discovered so many scandalous activities that I knew nothing about that I've begun to realize that I really will be better off without him. The kids and I will move on and grow stronger because of this experience together.

As for our goals of a simple life? Well, that part is pretty scary right now as my soon to be ex is threatening to take half of all of my assets including my military pension. I was counting on that pension to live that simple life. I can only hope that the judge takes into consideration the hell he's put me through over these years and doesn't make me pay for it the rest of my life. I'm at the point where I may opt to quit now and give up my pension to prevent him from using me anymore.

So I ask you, has my life gotten simpler or more complicated? I say simpler because there are less of us. I also don't have to work around what he wanted. However, it's also more complicated because my emotions are in turmoil and I don't have a mate to help me anymore. Because of him, I may also not have the resources I need to make the dream happen. It's really tough to handle the situation and the chaotic emotions that come with it. I wouldn't wish these feelings on my worst enemy but I know in the end I will adapt and overcome this and figure it out because that's what I do and who I am.